Party On 0644

Party On 0644 by mliu92
Party On 0644, a photo by mliu92 on Flickr.

Dear J-

It’s been a relatively quiet year, and one that I wouldn’t have guessed for myself last New Year’s Eve — I’ve been referring to it in my head as a lost year, of sorts, being that this year I didn’t have as much time with the family we’ve found outside of work — here I am stuck with the prospect of long hours and shaky employment to boot, and what have I sacrificed? A year, a whole year, which seemed ridiculous to contemplate in June, grew increasingly dim in September, and reached a nadir of what-have-I-done over the past couple of weeks.

Consider that I spent at least an hour researching things to do in Chalk River, Ontario in case work sends me there in the coming weeks and you’ll understand the madness of what it is we’re doing, and why we think we have to: because there’s always more questions than answers, because there’s no way of knowing with absolute confidence, only reasonable assurance, and if it means spending money to understand the physics, then spend it we shall. Meanwhile I hardly recognize the faces in this picture, and the strains of Harry Chapin’s Cat’s in the Cradle are playing in the back of my mind.



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